Sunday, February 7, 2010

One of Those Days

Today is one of those days. Did you ever have one, you know, a day where you feel enlightened and inspired and busy and tired and successful and a failure and driven and slothful, all in the same breath? Today is one of those days. What do we do with days like those? Are we supposed to choose one way to feel and then go with it, whether we believe that feeling or not? Or is it a better idea to crawl into a hole and just wait until we feel more like poking our head out into the world and saying, in our tiniest of voices, "hi... um... yeah, it's me again, I'm still here", hoping someone hears us, and takes our hand and pulls us out of our hiding place, presenting us to the world once again?

Ever have one of those days where you just don't know what to do or which direction to follow? I mean, seriously, even the wind is blowing in six different directions. How on earth am I supposed to choose a direction to follow? Even if I did "go where the wind blows," I'd be going in six different directions. But if history is any kind of a teacher, I should know by now that when I have a day like this, it's usually just a day like this, and tomorrow probably won't be a day like this. Perhaps my soul feels unsettled and unheard. Perhaps I've been moving off a path that I am supposed to be following. Maybe, just maybe, I haven't even stumbled upon the path of my destiny, and my soul is stirring in anxious anticipation, waiting for me to get a clue.

Maybe... but I think I'm just having one of those days.

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